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Seven 7hings to Think About While You Think About Dying

Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night.
- Dylan Thomas
You never fully realize just how much you want to live until you think you’re going to die.
For about 10 days, I thought I was going to die.  I know that sounds all melodramatic but it really happened that way.
I went to see a doctor due to a random pain in my abdomen.  The doctor ordered a CT scan and the next day she called to tell me that it showed that I had, “...a possible lesion on the head of [my] pancreas.”

Though I had no other symptoms, my mind immediately leapt to the worst possible outcome:  the lesion was pancreatic cancer.  I did some research and discovered that only 5% of people with pancreatic cancer are alive five years after their diagnosis.

Sidetrack for the best joke I wrote a couple days after the phone call: Doctor:  “You have a possible lesion on the head of your p-”
Me:  *gasp*
Doctor:  “-ancreas.”
Me:  “Oh, thank God it’…